The most frequently asked question from friends, family and clients has been "why?. why are you going that far?"
Before completing the century, the hundred, the ultra, the endurance race, the long day... I proposed, to myself, that the answer to that question will come from completing the session. Purpose was to be delayed. Purpose was to be established and experienced from doing. Weirdly, this can be presented as purpose. 'The purpose is to establish what the purpose is' Now I feel like I am sitting in one of those endless mirror rooms!
On one of the several bridges that crossed over the busy highways I was thinking how busy and frantic roads must appear to wildlife and nature. There was no deep enlightenment at this point. This run has not turned ultras into a quest of being super green. We had driven 70 miles ourselves to get here. Oblivious to the 70 miles of green space we had passed through. The radio drowning out the sound of engines and at one point saying " that was a better trip than I thought it would be". Totally negligent that every green space that was passed on the M3 had to put up with this fracca I was living with on the passovers and pathways parallel with the motorways. The main difference being I was on the move, never having to return. The flora and fawna don't have such choice.
I see 100 miles no different from trying to get faster over 5km. Both can hurt if you go hard enough. My PB for 5k is 17:15. I remember that effort. It made me feel many discomforts and had to think quick to remain positive throughout. Going long was the same, just in slow motion. To be ok with loving the now, especially when what you are doing now, is to be done for the next 20 hours, non stop. Staying in the moment. I will write a piece on pacing later. To welcome the prospect of doing the activity for a lengthy period of time. Embracing it and never wishing for it to end. The finish line I was glad to see. It was where I had been told it was. However, at no point was I was wishing it was closer. Getting into that mindset or the misfortune of hoping that time passes quicker can and will turn pain into suffering. And suffering is NOT my purpose now or in future efforts. To suffer is not something that can ever be attached to these efforts. SUFFERFEST... way out of control in how to prepare and take part in any physical effort when someone uses the word 'suffer' to express the experience. Unless someone was forcing it upon me or I was of unstable mind and forcing it upon myself: usually when there is no purpose attached!
By doing the 103 mile route I have enabled myself to be able to answer the question "why?"
To engage the brain
To keep playing
To further knowledge
To have a unique experience
To develop teamwork
To become an expert
I've always said Intensity is experienced from having intent.
Now, for me, I understand to announce purpose comes from first doing something rather than attaching purpose to do something.
Better remove some of these mirrors.